#who gives a fuck

[liquorwrist]

I wrote a fanfic where Gwenpool shows Deadpool the Worst Wolverine timeline.

[stormyrainyday]

apologies this is far from a coherent shower thought but i think it's time we like. decided to detach our identity a bit from the things we do. it's fine to just read. you don't have to be a reader. it's fine to just game. you don't have to be a gamer. you can be those things but i feel like in a quest to find ourselves and open our hearts, especially to others online (because i know, the first thing we do when on a new platform is say hi im [name] i like these things we should talk, i know, i do, my pinned post is literally that), i feel like we forget that we are more than the things we do and even the things we love. we, to borrow words from slay the princess, contain it in our multitudes.

it's a sentiment i've felt for a long time as someone who has been on the internet and in fandom spaces for a good decade now, and like. i find when we hold these things so close that they become us, we become too defensive over them. how many minor fandom disagreements spiral into threats, name calling, doxxing even? i find, especially younger users in fan spaces, tend to take even small differences of opinion and take them personally. saw someone blow up and call people awful names over believing only one person could top in a genshin ship. another left a server i was in because they disliked a popular character, and other (respectfully), decided to share why they did like her. i get that things like rejection sensitivity are a thing, but i think this failure to recognize the self as an entity apart from the things you do and the thoughts you have definitely contribute to this. phenomenon i suppose.

it's genuinely slay the princess that has given me the vocabulary to express and understand this thing i was already thinking. i think, though we are not gods, it's important to understand that we are not things so easily defined. we consist of our thoughts, our actions, our perceptions, our beliefs, and more. even the outside world's perception of us reflects some part of our nature. but not all of it. it's impossible to define oneself in one, two, three words or even an essay.

because like we don't exist in a vacuum. part of our existence is defined in our interactions with others. but not all. never all. there is no one who can truly know you, and we cannot truly know ourselves. our principles bend to the whims of circumstance no matter what we tell ourselves otherwise, so we can't decide what we are or what we would be in a situation for sure, ever. and that's not a bad thing, but if we can't ever truly know ourselves, then how can we assign such great importance to something as superficial as the things we enjoy sometimes?

we are both a constant and the capacity to change. and to take just a handful of things and call it your identity, even subconsciously, is a disservice to the self. in an effort to be seen we break ourselves down into easy (i hate to say it but) marketable pieces.

take being a reader for example. it has always felt like vague slang for booksmart, thoughtful, likely quiet and introverted as well, just as much as it means "i like to read books". theres an aesthetic to it involved, and a whole subculture. do you write in your books? do you keep them museum-fresh quality? do you read smut or classics or high fantasy or satire and what does it say about you? if you say audiobooks aren't real literature, are you signalling to others about quality and sophistication, or are you a pretentious asshole, and ableist to boot? these connotations assigned to such an otherwise benign thing about someone are i think are reflective of the construct of identity and perception. i could go on about it in a way that's more coherent but i, a student, have other things to do right now.

(does being a student make me intelligent? does it impress you to know i study medicine? what if i told you i average Cs in my classes? what if i told you i dislike patient care? what if i told you i'm not here for the money OR to make the world a better place, and that i'm here purely to serve my curiosities about the way the body functions and to absolve my obsessive need to understand just what are we? does this change what you think of me? does it matter? what if you knew the guilt i felt for seeing so much suffering, but still hating patient care enough to worry endlessly about being stuck in it as a career? am i better for it? but i have not acted on this guilt. it is a mere feeling that only i know. knew. is it different now that i've confessed it? does it matter? does any of it change who i am, fundamentally? or am i a thing detached from it all? or. as i like to believe. is it both? your shifting perceptions of me and the way i change shape and form (so much like our beloved princess in slay the princess) in your eyes, they make up me just as much as the soul or the self or whatever other philosophical name you assign to it. at the end of the day, isn't the most important thing that i am just me? both devoid of and constituted of the sum of my parts? what is found in the spaces between my cells? impulses and chemicals. is that me? is it all me? can i ever really know it? and why, why, why define it at all?)

[dysthoepiadaily]

Dan: we were more than friends

Dan: we are actual soulmates

Dan: we are husbands

Dan: we were fated to meet and be together

Dan: we are so close that we are one person

Dan and Phil: own a house together

Stupid Phandom People: when will they hard launch???

[smokebymoonlight]

A Nightmare on Elm Street 3: Dream Warriors

[1987]

[jazzyhighboi]

I don't give a fuck

[meltingfin1]

[cardboardboxy]

Trials of Apollo is an accidental disability allegory

Heres why :)

So apollo himself describes the transition from god to human as crippling, this is shown through the limitations of mortal memory, skill deterioration etc etc which are aspects of different disabilities, this is the more obvious stuff

But some other things are the inability to take on his desired form and the restriction of how many places he can be at one time, both of these can be very easily compared to reliance on mobilty aids, initially they are restricting to self expression and access to the world around you

BUT this isn't permanent (in most cases) apollo learns overtime to love his mortal from and while his feelings of restriction still stay (something that is also the case for a lot of disabled people!) he also comes to recognise the advantages of it and finds freedom in it, which is something mobility aid users also do

Apollo is cut of from the godly world in almost every way, and the few times he isnt (aside from artemis but we'll get to her) leads to him feeling inadequate and powerless against it. So he has to find community elsewhere among mortals a.k.a finding the disabled community

Throughout the course of the books apollo becomes deeply rooted in a mortal way of living, the way he takes care of himself and his friends changes as he comes to recognise mortals as equals, and that in many ways they're better then the gods

This is similar to the way that after finding the disabled community a lot of people learn to manage their disability better and unlearn a lot of internal biases they hold against disabled people

The emperors embody unchanging society, the people unwilling to alter anything in any way that helps people to their own detriment, if they weren't so hellbent on trying to 'get back to the good days' they couldve survived, the fact that they get stripped of their immortality is also relevant to the way most people eventually become disabled

Jason symbolises the victims of people not willing to change, a lot of disabled deaths are avoidable yet people still die, like jason still died because others (the gods) were unwilling to change. Apollos promise to remember what life was like as a mortal so he can change things is paralleled to people who are able to recover from their disabilities becoming advocates for accessibility and education

His relationship with artemis is reminiscent of the fact that disabled people often become more distant from able bodied people due to the lack of relatability, and while artemis cannot understand what he went through, she's not completely distanced from him and even helps him afterwards when he cannot bear to use his powers (its very common that disabled peoples family members will become their carers)

Apollo mourns his mortal life despite all the trauma it caused him, the same way recovering from disability isn't always a positive experience, to relean how to live a second time isn't easy. While he does interact with the gods, he goes right back to his mortal friends because they have more in common now after all he went through

This concludes my yap session 👍

[senatortedcruz]

they interrupted football to tell me Joe Biden pardoned Hunter??

[mychemicalraymance]

Why is America such a joke

[igottatho]

Found this via Instagram, from Mohammed el Kurd’s page, you can see him here.

He’s a treasure.

[ebony-hawthorne]

I've found something out since joining social media.

Nothing ever works out how you think it will. I can pour my heart and soul into something and get 10 likes.

And i can make a throwaway post and get hundreds.

And i stopped posting my own stuff for a while, bc i was like "why put effort into smth no one is gonna interact with, or care about :("

Like a fuckin loser. Because you know what? I don't control what people like or dislike, i can only control what i like.

So y'know what? I post for myself now. What i feel like, when i feel like it. Because this is, ultimately, just for fun.

Like i know i'm not that funny, and i'm not that good at art, and honestly don't make that much i teresting stuff. I just don't care anymore.

The point i'm trying to make is, who are you posting for? Others, or yourself. Because if it makes you happy, who gives a flying fuck what others think. That took me ages to ome to terms with, and i still slip up. But honestly, if something makes you happy, do it.

[yurifier3000]

sharing flopatron600’s face card

[fite-club]

transandrophobia truthers b like of course i believe in misogyny but we need to talk about how hurtful it is when women are upset and mean

[starker1975]

It’s such a lonely road thinking the renesmee x Jacob plot line is actually cute and a decent wrap up to the love triangle dilemma lmao. Like is it so different from the a/b/o and soulmate tropes we consume in fan fic daily? And people are so quick to hop on the hate bandwagon. As if Jacob is getting it on with an infant… absolutely not. At this point he just really loves her and pledges his life to being anything she could need?? Nothing untoward is going onnnn. And the argument that he knew her when she was a baby so it’s creepy even if he waits for her to age (similar to other age gap relationships where one person knew the other as a minor but doesn’t get involved with them until they’re older) kind of makes me laugh. Like everyone you’ve ever found attractive and wanted to have sex with was once a baby. Are we all theoretical pedophiles? I *get* why it’s creepy, sure. But I also get why it’s not. There’s nuance and context people ignore just so they can yap about grooming and how predatory everything is… like not everything is that deep fr. Anyway I can comfortably say that anything Colleen Hoover writes between two adults is more creepy and fucked up than anything in twilight 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

[definetlyaddicted]

How Marauder stans expect us to react when they say shit like "Lily wouldn't have forgiven Snape in the afterlife. In fact she would HATE him"

[red-velvet-0w0]

im going to sleep now

at least i know that if i never wake up in the morning at least 2 of my mutuals will miss me. maybe thats enough motivation to get me to keep going through tomorow